My letter To God

Dear God,
As I travel home from spending time with my son, I have lots of time to think about life. I pray for the strength, and health to get up every morning. Please give me enough will power to get through the day without being upset. I hope to not sin, be nasty, evil, or hateful. I want to be happy, loving, and helpful. I want the strength to show how thankful I am for everything you have provided for me in life, and all the challenges I have been able to conquer. I want for Aiden to know that hes loved, more than I could ever show or tell him. I hope he knows his happyness is one of the things I strive for everyday, and I would give anything to make him healthy.
I do want you to know, I find it unfair you have chosen such a sweet, loving baby to have such a horrible illness. Although I am not mad, I know you do have a plan for me. I will never know what the plan is ahead of time, or why you chose for things to happen. If I could ever ask for anything, it would be for you to take as much of Aidens pain away as you possibly could, even if it means inflicting it upon myself. For he is my one true love, and I depend on you to watch over him while I am not with him. I depend on the strength you give me, to make it through the week, so I am able to work..then go see him. Please help me get him heatlhy through this rough time in our lives, for I cannot be there as much as I was last time. Please help him in a safe return home.
Love Always & Forever
Sarah-Aidens Mommy